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I've been on the verge of deleting this blog but with a stroke of genius I've found a new purpose and direction. You see, I am a South Florida native but I am not a Miami native. I grew up in a rural area just outside of Miami called, Southwest Ranches. Southwest Ranches is located in West Broward County in between Pembroke Pines and Weston. It's about 15 minutes away from the Dade/Broward lines but it felt like it was worlds apart. My overprotective mother would not allow me to go to Miami because she thought that all hell broke loose once you crossed the Dade/Broward line. I started sneaking over to Hialeah when I was about 15 and I tried to get over there as much as I could. I found a Miami boyfriend and Miami friends and I longed to be from there. When I was 22 years old, my parents sold their house and I finally moved to Miami on my own.

I have a love/hate relationship with Miami. I have been trying to get out of Miami for as long as I can remember but I just can't shake her. As soon as I get close to leaving, I realize that I am completely in love with her. I do hope that one day I will move to a big city in the Northeast but until then, I will turn this blog into a love letter to Miami.

3-0-5 'til I die!

Random rant

I don't behave a certain way and a lot of times I say things that I'm not supposed to. That's who I am and I'm not changing that because if that's how you judge me, then you are a surface person and I want more than that.

Sometimes a man gets carried away,
When he feels like he should be having his fun
Much too blind to see the damage he's done
Sometimes a man must awake to find that, really,
He has no-one...

Moving to Austin?

Totally random, I know. I just came back from a trip to Austin. My homegirl Rachel has been trying to get me to move there so other than wanting to visit her, I wanted to scope it out for consideration. Moving my focus from New York to Austin is like comparing apples to oranges. I LOVE NYC. LOVE IT. I love the buildings, I love the dirty streets, I love the bums, I love the parks, I love the rude people, I love everything about the city. I don't love Austin the city. It's okay. It's weird because it's really, really small. The downtown area is tiny and the rest of it is surrounded by highways. The houses are all really cute. They're not houses that I'd love to have but they're really cute.

I liked Austin because it made me feel relaxed and free and happy. Granted, I was on vacation but I feel like that sentiment would last if I lived there. I don't know how to describe this really but I've been exhausted. Not just lack of sleep and in need of a good weekend tired, but mentally and physically drained. With the changes at my job and the end of school, I am so worn down. I don't feel like I have the energy to move to New York. Austin would be a pretty easy transition for me. I have Rachel there to help me with a lot of stuff and I feel like she will take care of me. I need to be around friends right now. I like Austin because of the people. Everyone that I met was so cool and interesting and the people that I didn't meet seemed like they would be cool and interesting. Austin would be a temporary move. Something to get me out of Miami and start life as an adult. A place to get my footing and to use it as leverage to get to New York. It's cheaper than Miami so I could save some money and get experience at a base level job so I can move to NYC with a better career. My ideal timeframe in ATX would be 2-3 years. Anyway, here's my list of goals if I were to move to Austin:

1) Lose some weight in my arms and get my El Dia de Los Muertos themed sleeve.
2) Get back into yoga.
3) Get back into dance.
4) Get back into reading, writing and start painting.
5) See lots of live music.
6) Learn how to be more active.